2006 - Not a good start

...but it can only get better!

A long time between posts but unfortunately not much to report on in the running stakes. I finished my last post full of (hopeful) enthusiasm however the truth of the matter is that my PF is no better.

Since I last posted 3 weeks ago I have run a total of 27kms. Each time has seen me get into a run okay however the next day has seen me walking around like a cripple. It has been an incredibly frustrating 2 months and some.

So the decision I have made is to not run until things are back to normal. To be honest the lack of running and probably more to the point missing the camaraderie of joining your mates in a run has left a bit hollow. I am not desperately unhappy, but it is like something is missing. Even on the 3 occasions I have run in the last 3 weeks it has been with an empty heart because deep down each time I hit the road running I knew that perhaps I shouldn't.

I am really missing the social aspect of running to the point where to be honest I haven't visited blogs since I last posted. I would like to think of myself as a fairly supportive and encouraging type however I just haven't had it in my heart of late to even log into my regular blogs and even coolrunning. The feeling I have had is that it would be like beating myself up.

I took a brief look on cr today and all the talk of people cranking up the training for 6foot track(a race I had/have no intention of running this year mind you!) and again it left me feeling very hollow indeed. I do not have a jealous bone in my body but I reckon today is as envious I could ever get.

The brain is constantly thinking about how long it will take to get back where I left off. As each day goes by the reality is that it just gets a little harder. I think this is where the normal runners mind (if there is such a thing!) really lets us down. Each time we reach a new milestone we just make our lives a little more difficult as human nature wants us too eke a little more out ourselves. This is good and bad. Good when you are top of your game, but bad if you are not quite right and keep trying to squeeze that little bit extra out. Hey presto, your kms for 3 months don't even come close to the previous 1.

As far as racing goes my greatest disappointment is my decision now not to run in Canberra. My thoughts after finishing Sydney last year had revolved around running that elusive sub 3 hour marathon. That on top of exorcising(sp) a few demons from Canberra 2005 I was determined to leave no stone unturned in my crack this year. Part of the plan was to be as ready as I ever have been. The reality is that even if I made a miracle recovery tomorrow, this wouldn't allow me to prepare to my satisfaction.

So the goal now is to be patient and to get back to 100%. Phew, I have needed to get that for a week or so.

In the meantime we had a brilliant Christmas and New Year break, I will post some photos and family stuff in the next week - hell, I cant bang on about running at the moment!

Finally and most importantly my most heartfelt thanks for all the support and good wishes. Also my most humble apologies for not replying sooner to emails and comments. Rest assured I will back amongst the blogging and cr community over the next few days.